A friend and I were discussing my commitment phobia the other day. As familiar as I am with it and how it feels, I had difficulty finding the words to explain it. I was very tired at the time and knew I needed to postpone the discussion until later, so I told her I’d get back to her.
As it turns out, explaining commitment phobia is no easy task. There’s plenty of very clinical information about it and many people with varying degrees of “expertise” writing about it. After reading what they write, it’s pretty clear most of them have never experienced the raw emotions and the convoluted decision process a true commitment phobe goes through.
There's just not much in depth discussion of the underlying feelings that accompany it from people who actually experience it. So I'm going to devote some blog time to discussing it from a physical, intellectual, emotional and spiritual perspective.
I’m going to try to explain commitment phobia to you from the perspective of a deeply commitment phobic person.
As I'm preparing to do this, if anyone has any questions about commitment phobia, please post them in the comment section. It will really help me in preparing my information.
Just thinking about this is raising my anxiety levels.